Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People.
10. Hah, I miss you terribly. You were my first real crush, that one person I could always lean on. Now, it's different. You've said horribly rude things to and about me. I know things will never be the same, but all i can do is hope for the best. I would still like to be your friend if you gave me a chance.
9. In the beginning I could see behind your act. Now, I know that I was right about all my accusations. Everything you say, or do, is a lie. It's either trying to piss me off or lying to get my attention. You've told me that you want to be my 'best friend' but, in all honesty, I just can't let you in. I can't have another person in my life that will lie to me about something that isn't even worth it. Please don't get the wrong idea, I would love to have you as my friend, but only if you would stop lying about nothing.
8. We've grown apart, once again. Why is this always off and on with you? We've been best friends since Pre-k. I miss you so much. I know that you have a boyfriend now, and you would just love to spend all of your time with him. But that doesn't mean you need to forget about all your friends, too. Or even when you invite 'other' friend over, doesn't mean you need to tell me about it, and rub it in that I wasn't there. This makes me feel more left out than ever. Thanks.
7. Ohhhh, you. Best 'bestie' award. Until 2 months ago. What did I do for you to want to stop hanging out with me? Or say harsh things about me? I know I didn't do anything to deserve this. Hah, you out of all the people in my life, I wish I could still have you in it. It hurts so bad to say that, but I really honestly miss you. I wish you could see what you've left me to become. You say you miss me, and love me, but I can see that that just isn't true. How could it be? You ignore me, ignore being around me, and just completely blow me off every time I try to do something with you.
6. I'm going to say this is the nicest way possible. Please, just shut up. I'm so sick of you. I know I've known you for the longest time, and I should be used to your selfish annoying ways... But I just can't stand you. Yes, I love you, you're like a sister to me. I adore you. The things you do just set me off, though. Having a boyfriend every other week is really slutty. Not to mention stupid, you just had the best boyfriend anyone could ever have. He was PERFECT. Now you broke up with him because you had a crush on another boy that you will never have a chance with? ...At all? Hah, that was stupid. Please, just get over yourself. People do stupid things, no matter what. You are JUST as annoying as anyone else, please don't think you're anything special. :3 ...Take that in the nicest way possible? I love you. <3
5. Ahh, you're the only person that can ALMOST completely understand what I'm going through. Thank you for that. I know I have someone I can lean on. You've gone through a lot, probably more than anyone at our school has, honestly. I love you, I really do. But you can be a bit over-powering sometimes, I know you just want to be heard, but let me get a few words in some times... I want to be heard, too.
4. You of all people should have known better. You have probably pissed me off worse than anyone I know. I thought you could keep a secret. This is my life? you don't need to go run and tell on me whenever I do something differently than I should have. I've lost so much respect for you, I can't even manage a sympathy laugh. I really hope you see what you've done to my life soon.
3.I know nobody is perfect, and neither am I. Just stop going around thinking you're perfect. You're not. Hah, funny how that is the only thing I could think to say to you.
2. I've done nothing to deserve this from you. We got along for so long. Had those late night talks, and just sat around and ate Oreo's, talking about pretend/s,pretenders, and the likes. But now? It's like I don't even exist, all because you've got this new boyfriend. I liked you better when you had a girlfriend. D: I miss you more than any one else in my life, right now. Please come back? I need you.
1. I've saved you for last, because you're my favorite person. Ever. :] I love how I can talk to you about anything, and not be judged. Every time I talk to you, I can't wipe that stupid grin off my face. I love you, so much. You are my current crush right now, and you know that. You told me a while ago that you liked me back, I just wish that you would make things all the more clear to me. You're so confusing. I know you don't like to express your feelings to me, or anyone else for that matter, but you can tell me. I'll always be here to listen. I worry about you, more than anyone else. I fear for your safety, and how you're doing. Please, understand that I don't want to annoy you. Or bother you in anyway. I'm just trying to care. <3
Nine things about myself.
9. I don't like to judge people,
8. I hope to make a difference somehow, even if it's small.
7. I'm trying to be more comfortable in my skin.
6. I hope I've left a positive print on everyone I've met.
5. I just want to help.
4. I care for everyone, even if they've hurt me.
3. I honestly can't be a mean person, unless you did something drastic.
2. I'm living my life for me, nobody else.
1. I'll try my best to be my best.
Eight ways to win my heart.
8. Be who you are.
7. Share your feelings, I love that.<3
6. Don't be afraid to tell me I look like crap. :3
5. Be honest, no matter what.
4. Just, don't lie. Please?
3. Try you're best to let me know that you like me.
2. Tell me that you think I'm pretty.
1. Tell me your hopes and dreams. :]
Seven things that cross my mind a lot.
7. Really? Did you really just say that?
6. Om nom nom, food.
5. Huh, how unfortunate for me.
4. Just, daydreaming of something better.
3. Wishing I could be somewhere else, rather than here.
2. I hope he's okay. D:
1. ...wat.
Six things I do before I fall asleep.
6. Get on the computer,
5. Get ready for beddd,
4. Think of things I did today,
3. Try to finish up on the computer,
2. Get in bed, listen to music.
1. Think, and doze off.
Five people who mean a lot. (In no order whatsoever...)
5. Family.
4. People you've tried to cheer me up,
3. People that are nice to everyone.
2. Cortney.
1. Duncan.
Four things you're wearing right now.
4. Sweats,
3. Tank top.
2. Sweater,
1. Socks. :]
Three songs that you listen to often. (lately)
3. I'm Done With You - Alexandher
2. Northern Lights - Blowerbirds
1. Closer - Jem
Two things you want to do before you die.
2. Travel the world. :] <3
1. Make a difference in somebody's life.
One confession.
I'm extremely self-conscious.
It's also very hard for me to take compliments.
