My self esteem.

How do you see me?
How do I see myself?
Every which way those questions are asked.
All they are to me is just words.
Not knowing exactly what they ask.
What they mean,
how many times they've been said.
I have no self esteem.
None what so ever.
You tell me why.
I get told I'm skinny,
I'm not fat.
I don't believe you.
You say that 'it's just the way your bodies built'.
Yeah,
I'll take that into account the first couple times.
After a while it just gets old.
I'm so insecure.
I wish there was something I could do,
to make this pain go away.
I know I won't have that super model body.
But, I don't want to look like this,
thinner, preferably.
I've never been the extremely pretty girl,
that everyone always looks to for beauty.
Just once,
would I like to be that girl,
see how she feels.
All in all,
I'm not comfortable with who I am.
It's terrible,
I know.
But; there's nothing I can do.